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Brilliant poll, says everything really. You have one option to answer no question. Could it be better gymguy? I think lift could help you out, especially at the gym. Good luck! OUcwV9 not only should your roof protect you from the elements. LtGhrKuTmFzDFDec 20 2018 10:58pm test GalenJun 25 2021 3:44am The last thread stopped working, so I guess I can keep going here. My mom's going to take the pregnancy tests tonight, and I'm desperately hoping they'll be negative, but I also know it doesn't really matter. If she's not pregnant now she'll be pregnant next week, or next month, it's just a matter of time. I heard him talking to his mother and to my mom, and now I know for a fact he has at least 3 kids already, one by his teacher and one by a teenage girl and one by the mother of one of his classmates. It's pretty likely our uncle's son is his as well, and he certainly has several more that even he doesn't know about. I hope my cousin's traits aren't heritable and none of the boys turn out like him, more copies of him walking around is the last thing the world needs. I haven't been able to avoid his attention over the weekend unfortunately, he beat me around a bit for his enjoyment, including once by holding me in a headlock as he was lying on the ground and my mom was riding him. I shut my eyes tight so I wouldn't see, but he squeezed my neck harder and ordered me to keep them open, and forced me to watch his dick entering my mom close up. He's been making me give him blowjobs a few times a day now, it seems like now he and my mom have started f*cking like rabbits he can't go 10 minutes without some sexual activity. Sometimes my mom is asleep, passed out, or generally exhausted, and when that happens he calls me down to suck him. The last time that happened he even said to me as he was in my mouth "you taste that? That's your mom's p*ssy juices" and laughed, I almost threw up. anonymous123Jun 27 2021 4:58pm thanks to Galen for suggesting this site. Throwing up:- indeed! gross and the sad thing is that he takes delight in this. PpJun 28 2021 1:02pm He definitely takes delight in it, he's always been sadistic. I think half the pleasure he takes in f*cking my mom is in using it to torture me, it's the same for our older cousin. That cousin told me once about a similar thing he did to him, where after he was done f*cking his girlfriend he immediately made him have sex with her while her vagina was still overflowing with his cum, and his dick had to kind of squelch through it. The 10 year old also bragged to me a couple days ago about his classmate's mother who he impregnated, about how funny he thinks it is when he sees his classmate changing his son's diapers when he goes to his house to f*ck his mom. And it looks like in 9 months time that will be me, because my mom is definitely pregnant. 5 out of the 7 tests I bought were positive, and the others were almost certainly false negatives caused by how early in the pregnancy the tests were taken. Given the time frame it's possible he impregnated her the first time they had sex, I probably watched it happen. The idea of my mom having my cousin's child, and having a half-brother who is half my mom and half my cousin, is horrifying to me. I've never seen my mom happier than when she learned the results, but that's just the brainwashed version of her. I've never seen her hornier either, she screamed louder than ever during the celebratory sex. My cousin also seemed happy about it, but that's just because he knows he won't have to take any responsibility for the kid or see him/her any more often than he wants to. There are probably dozens of kids out there being raised entirely by their mothers or other family members, that he shows no interest in. My cousin told me he'll hire me as the kid's nanny, and he hopes it's a boy, because "then you'll have two real men to look up to" and "he'll probably have a bigger c*ck then you when he's born". anonymous123Jun 28 2021 4:56pm Sadistic, out-of-control, incapable of responsibility, power-oriented and whatever else you might want to add to this list. As mentioned a number of times now, this really has to stop. there are many other people out there who would agree. PpJun 29 2021 3:34pm Power oriented is very true, he has a compulsive need to always be the one in charge, he has to be the most powerful person in the room. And he always succeeds in that, in the last couple of years I've never seen him in a room with anyone who he isn't in control over. As soon as he arrives everyone is aware that he's the boss now, it's strange to see a room full of fully grown adults all deferring to the authority of a 10 year old. He controls males through force or the threat of force, I've never met anyone who he wouldn't be able to beat up if he wants to, and I don't think he has either. I suppose a huge adult bodybuilder would be an exception, but I don't know any of those. Even people who have never seen him fighting anyone will know he could beat them up just by looking at his muscles, which is one of the reasons he never wears a shirt unless he absolutely has to, even if he's wearing one outdoors he usually takes it off when he goes into a building. We live somewhere hot and near the beach and it's generally socially acceptable here for males to walk around on the street shirtless. He also sometimes controls males with the explicit or implied threat of going after their partners or female family members. I've never seen him be violent with a woman (I suppose that's a slight redeeming feature), he controls them with his sexuality. Either he has sex with her and brings her under his spell, when that happens she usually becomes something like my mom and will do anything he says without question, or if he hasn't f*cked her yet he exploits her sexual attraction to him. Obviously most women aren't attracted to 10 year olds, but I really think there's something about the combination of a "cute" childlike face and massive muscles (and a huge bulge with is always visible) that a lot of them find irresistible. I knew this before he came to stay with us but I thought my mom would be different, I guess I'm not the first guy to think that about his partner, mother, daughter, or sister. He's never faced any consequences for any of his actions, and now he's used to being able to have sex at will with pretty much whatever woman he wants, and use intimidation to get whatever he wants from pretty much any man. I'm worried that his child with my mom will be a boy and he'll take after his father, especially in how he treats me. His obsession with having power over people is very apparent when he makes me give him blowjobs, he always tells me they don't even feel good for him, and I know he could get one from my mom or from a whole phone book's worth of women and girls who could be at the door in 15 minutes. But he insists on making me do it just because he enjoys the power trip, he likes demonstrating his dominance over me and forcing me to do something degrading that I obviously hate. That was the case the first time he made me do it after he caught me spying on him having sex, and it's been how he uses it ever since, to remind me that he's the boss and he can make me do anything he wants. Recently he's been making me do it even more often, most recently just an hour ago as he was talking to his mother on the phone. She heard the noise and asked if that was her sister sucking him, and there was a lot of laughter when he said it was actually me. She told him about the visit I payed her last week and they had a laugh about that as well. Today he also made me and my mom suck him at the same time, with her taking the right side of his dick and me the left. And I guess he saw how much the "your mom's p*ssy juices" line disgusted me, so twice in the last couple of days he's made me give him a blowjob immediately after he took his dick out of my mom, and repeated the same line. The worst part is that I actually can taste it. anonymous123Jun 29 2021 4:56pm I hope your lengthy descriptions helps you somehow to cope with all this. An adult bodybuilder !...hummh...one that is sympathetic/empathic/sensible might be the person who can shift the balance of power. PpJun 29 2021 5:30pm When I was talking with my relatives we did consider the idea of finding someone who can phsyically match my cousin and using him to humble him, or protect the rest of us from him. We rejected the idea for a few reasons. For one thing, men who are physically stronger or could match my cousin in a fight are extremely rare, last year another cousin (not the one who's girlfriend is being f*cked) brought his large and athletic friend to confront him, and the friend ended up in the hospital. The 10 year old is much stronger than he looks, and he looks incredibly strong. He's also amazingly good at fighting, so even if his opponent does have a strength advantage he'd almost certainly still lose. Even if we could find someone who would be able to beat him, any threats we would make would be hollow, as he probably wouldn't be willing to actually attack a 10 year old, and if he did we could all be arrested for assaulting a child or being an accomplice. It would be dangerous to involve a third party, after he finds out that my mom and other members of the family have been having sex with a 10 year old he might freak out and alert the authorities, where I live he would actually be breaking the law if he didn't. My cousin's age protects him in so many ways, it makes him impossible to stop, and it also makes it more horrifying to think of the kind of person he is. I do kind of like the idea of finding someone who is stronger than my cousin and somehow getting them to arm wrestle, just so my cousin could lose a contest for once and maybe be a bit humbled. That might backfire as he may respond by increasing his cruelty toward me and the other males in our family, so I'm nervous about doing that as well. He's been getting more cruel anyway, yesterday he did another side by side comparison with me in front of my mom. It also involved arm wrestling, in which he beat me with just his weaker left arm while I used both of my arms. After the penis comparison, which was obviously a foregone conclusion, he said we had to do a "cumming competition", where whoever loses has to eat all of the winner's semen. I hadn't cum in over a week so I produced quite a lot by my standards, though it's still only a couple of squirts, less than most guys. My cousin got my mom to jerk him off for him, and he cummed in several huge blasts, it spread over the floor next to my own ejaculation and there was definitely more than 5 or even 10 times as much, despite the fact he'd already cum several times that day. I had to get on my hands and knees and lick it off the floor, and when I tried to get up he put his foot on my head and pushed it back down, saying "you missed a spot". My mom volunteered several times to do the job instead though obviously not out of concern for me. Neither my cousin nor my mom have left the house in almost 2 weeks, and neither of them have worn an single item of clothing since then, staying totally naked the entire time. anonymous123Jun 30 2021 11:28am yeah, it would be wrong to involve a third party. if so many of you are out of ideas, imagine the rest of us who are reading your reports. Hard to believe that an 8 - 10 year old can rule over adults to such an extent, however your own experiences prove it is indeed possible. Not sure what else to say to assist PpJun 30 2021 12:02pm Basically my entire extended family have been trying to rein him in for the last 5 years, and nobody's ever thought of anything effective, he's just gotten worse and worse. My mom used to be part of those conversations, she pointed to the women he had ensnared as reasons why something had to be done. Now she's one of those women, to the point where yesterday she was begging him to allow her to lick his cum off the floor. They were at it all night last night and I barely slept, and today I saw my cousin asleep on the couch while my mom felt his abs and pecs with one hand and masturbated with another. She knew about what my cousin could turn women and girls into, but it only took a few days of him staying with us and showing off his body and lightly flirting with her for her to forget or decide she didn't care about any of that, and become enthralled with him. It is pretty crazy to see him ruling over all these adults, especially a couple of years ago when he was 8. But even back then he was easily capable of overpowering most adult men (including all the ones in our family) and he was already very much sexually active and already capable of using that to control women as well. He started being compelled to dominate the people around him at least when he was 6, and probably earlier. At first it was kids and teenagers, he could beat me and the vast majority of other 16 year olds by that age, and he was the undisputed boss of our generation of our family. It was very emasculating for all of us to be in our teens and under the control of a 6 year old. He progressed to dominating adults a couple years later. About a year and a half ago when he was 9 he was sitting next to our uncle's wife and getting very handsy with her, even reaching one of his hands under her shirt to fondle her chest. Our uncle was watching and this crossed a line for him, so he got up and yelled at him. My cousin calmly stood up, took off his shirt, and walked over to our uncle. The uncle looked scared, and backed away from him, eventually his legs hit the couch and he fell onto it. Now he was about at eye level with my cousin, who stared at his face and asked him to repeat what he had yelled. Our uncle stammered a bit, not really knowing what to say. Then my cousin told him to either repeat what he had said or apologize for yelling, and our uncle forced himself to apologize. The uncle spent the rest of the evening staring at the floor, utterly humiliated, while his nephew went back to fondling his wife. I left before I saw what happened next, but it was about 9 months before the uncle's "son" was born. This episode illustrates what the dynamics of my extended family are like, my cousin is always the boss and everyone else is terrified of him and refuses to challenge him. anonymous123Jun 30 2021 5:10pm simply amazing. Such a mindset is only going to be continually reinforced through daily 'successes' and likely to be an attitude he takes through his entire life. PpJul 01 2021 12:52pm Yeah, as I said he's never faced any consequences for any of his actions. On the contrary, this behavior has always resulted in all the sex he could want and the pleasure of seeing much older males getting intimidated. He's only going to get worse, when he was 8 I thought it was as bad as it could get but now at 10 he's far worse, and I can't even imagine what he'll be doing when he's 12. Everyone in his life has been damaged by him, I suppose the women get some pleasure in the short term but I think that's more than cancelled out by the frustration they feel when they're not having sex with him. I can see my mom's in real pain in the fairly brief periods of time when she's away from him, today he told her to leave him alone for an hour so he can work out properly and it was clear she couldn't handle it, she spent the whole time masturbating and I could see the anguish on her face. When he makes me give him a blowjob she watches with this look of envy on her face, and one time I spat out some of his cum and she got angry with me for "wasting" it, like it's some expensive wine. In the long term the women/girls end up with irreparable psychological damage, and so do the males in his life, I'll never fully recover from seeing my mom in that state and my older cousin and our uncle will never be the same either. I feel the most sorry for all his kids though, they're being raised without fathers by mothers with all these psychological issues he caused. He was bragging to my mom as he f*cked her yesterday that he had 7 kids who he knows about (not counting my mom's pregnancy) and about the same number who may or may not be his. There are certainly even more that he doesn't know about, from short relationships or one-night-stand type affairs where he never saw the woman again. He doesn't see that as a bad thing though, in fact he's proud of himself for it. I also heard him bragging about how he's supposedly never worn a condom in his life, he's ok with his partner taking contraception but if she insists he use a condom he just leaves. I want to find out how old his oldest kids are and maybe see if I can have a look at them, I want to see if my cousin's traits are heritable and if I can expect my half-sibling to exhibit them too if it turns out to be a boy. anonymous123Jul 02 2021 6:15pm Dreadful and tragic with more to come. His conquest attitude will be increasingly more difficult to address. PpJul 03 2021 4:04pm Conquest attitude is a good way of putting it. He obviously enjoys the sex, but I think he enjoys the sense of conquest even more, and he enjoys seeing the state of depravity his body can induce in women, and he sees impregnating someone as the ultimate conquest. It's obvious he loves to use it to torture other males as well, he always goes after women in relationships, and then rubs it in their partner's face. He does the same thing with the family members of his women as well, like with me, and I know he's done the same thing to some girls' brothers and fathers as well. This weekend I tried to track down one of my cousin's oldest kids, I started by talking to people in my family. I found out that the oldest anyone knows about was born to a girl who used to babysit him, she was 17 at the time and my cousin was only 7. I managed to find the girl on social media, she still lived nearby, and I contacted her to tell her who I am and ask if I could talk to her. I was surprised when she agreed, and while my mom and my cousin were in the shower together I sneaked out and took a couple buses to get to her place. I explained my situation and she was sympathetic, I got some insight into what it's like from the girl's perspective. She said she was in a similar state to my mom, though not quite as extreme, and she was ashamed and embarrassed about what she was like back then. She said that once she had gotten addicted to him her need for sex was like someone's need for water after a few days without drinking. Apparently there were a few times where she was in her own house in the middle of the night masturbating and she couldn't take it anymore, and she got dressed and rode her bike to his house and climbed in his window. Like my mom she was delighted when she got pregnant, but my cousin eventually got bored of her and cut her off, that was devastating for her at first and she actually stalked him a bit, though she eventually started to get over him. As she was talking about this, her son (who had recently turned 3) ran into the room naked. He looked exactly like my cousin did at that age. It was pretty shocking, he had a 4 or maybe 6 pack abs and an amazingly muscular physique, as well as a soft dick that was definitely more than my 3.2 inch erection. I asked if her son exercised a lot, and she said his muscles were caused by a condition called myostatin-related muscle hypertrophy, where a hormone that usually blocks muscle growth is deficient. It has already been suggested to me that my cousin has this condition, and this is the proof, it's a rare condition that is known to be heritable. I don't know if the dick size and early puberty are related to this condition, but at least the dick size was also inherited by his son. I'm used to feeling inadequate but it still didn't feel great to know there's a 3 year old who's bigger soft than I am hard. I'm really hoping now that my mom's child is a girl, the idea of her giving birth to a mini version of my cousin is horrifying. At least this kid seemed perfectly pleasant and well behaved, I guess my cousin's behavior is caused by his mother and his upbringing. anonymous123Jul 04 2021 4:35pm you have been very proactive in seeking assistance and a greater understanding of your predicament. No one can compete against people who are so medically different from the norm. How does your cousin humiliate you in private without your mother present? ppJul 04 2021 6:36pm That visit made me feel better and worse at the same time. The girl seemed mostly OK, and it helped to see that my cousin got bored of her and she had mostly recovered. But it was worrying to hear how long that took, and she said she's still damaged by her relationship with him. She told me he completely redefined her sexuality, she isn't attracted to any other men now, she hasn't been able to have any relationships after him, she still dreams about him pretty often, and the only thing that can turn her on is remembering what he was like and looking at pictures of him that she kept. She said that even though she hates him, if he showed up at her door for sex she would almost certainly say yes. She was remarkably open with me, I suppose it was good for her to be able to talk to someone about this. It was good to see that her son seemed nice and well behaved, suggesting that my cousin's cruelty comes from his upbringing. But it was unnerving to see how much he looked like his father, and how he inherited his muscularity and size and probably his early puberty as well, his mother said she had seen him getting erections when watching a TV show with women in bikinis. Already she's decided not to ever hire any female babysitters for him, knowing how he was conceived. I actually offered to do some babysitting for him when I can, for some reason I'd like to get to know him a bit better, maybe I feel a bit responsible for him because of the family connection or maybe I just want to see how my half-sibling might turn out. I feel like (at least if it's a boy) I will be obliged to participate in raising him to make sure he doesn't turn out like his father, if he inherits his traits then I know what kind of damage he could do if not raised right. anonymous123Jul 05 2021 10:26am My cousin takes any opportunity to humiliate me, but we're rarely in private anymore, my mom is almost always with him. The only times she's not is when she's asleep or passed out from exhaustion. When that happens my cousin usually makes me give him a blowjob, he's made me give him at least one every day for the last week, he doesn't particularly enjoy the blowjob but he does it to torture me and reinforce his dominance over me. He also likes to describe what it's like to have sex with my mom to me in vivid detail, he can tell I hate that. One time he was doing that as my mom was passed out in front of us, and he made me look as he spread her vagina out and explained exactly what he does when he wants to make her cum as fast as possible. He demonstrates his strength against me as well, by lifting me or pinning me to the ground until I beg him to let me go. Last week he made me put my hand on his bicep, bend his elbow so his forearm was over my hand, then flexed his bicep so hard that my hand was crushed between that and his forearm, I think he almost broke some bones in my hand and it hurt for days. He's always loved the penis comparisons as well, the last time we did that he made me put mine on top of his glans (mine is about as long as just his glans) and then pulled his foreskin forward so it completely enveloped mine, then he got me to use my hand to rub his shaft until he ejaculated, and when I withdrew my dick it was covered in his cum. The worst humiliation happened last night though. I had sneaked out of the house while he and my mom were in the shower, and a few hours later when I got back they were having sex in her room. I was hoping that they had gone straight to that and hadn't noticed I was gone, and he didn't mention anything for the rest of the day so I thought I was in the clear. But, yesterday called me down and asked me when he had given me permission to leave the house. I tried to deny it, but he grabbed me, pulled down my pants, put me over his lap, and spanked me very hard, it was incredibly painful. Then he stood up on the couch and lifted me by my armpits. His dick was erect and pointing straight upward, and he lowered me down so my ass was just above his dick, and if he lowered me any more it would enter me. I was crying and begging him not to drop me, and he kept briefly letting me go then catching me again, it almost penetrated me a couple times. I was incredibly desperate, I think it could have killed me if it had fully penetrated me, and I was in hysterics begging him not to do it. My cousin was laughing, and me made me promise several times to never do anything like that again. Thankfully he set me down afterwards and just made me suck him a couple times, I was so relieved. anonymous123Jul 05 2021 10:35am Gosh. you have been living a life of self-preservation; having to agree to demands or face/risk physical harm; being intimidated for every choice you made. You are caught between two bad options. I am impressed by your moral stance throughout the entire ordeal. This is important PpJul 05 2021 3:23pm I kind of feel responsible for my cousin's son. I was only 17 when he was conceived, but I blame my entire family for not doing enough to rein in my cousin when he was younger, and that includes me. If I had taken action when he first started acting violently toward me and others when he was 6 then maybe his babysitter wouldn't have suffered so much, and son and all his other children wouldn't have been born. At that point I could have involved child protective services or someone like that without getting my mom and other women arrested, now it's too late for that. I faced another moral dilemma earlier today, when my cousin asked me where I had gone that day. I didn't want to tell him the truth because that would remind him that his old babysitter exists, and it might make him go pay her a visit and put her back under his spell, she already said she wouldn't be able to help herself if that happened. On the other hand I was terrified of what he would do if he found out I lied to him, he had just got done f*cking my mom and his dick was erect and sticking out in front of him, and the sight of that and the imagination of what it would be like penetrating me was very scary. It didn't matter in the end, while I was trying to decide what to say he just picked up my phone and went through my messages, and saw my conversations with his son's mother. I initially felt terrible for possibly bringing them into contact again, but he just laughed and apparently has no interest in seeing her again. He asked me about his son, and I did tell him the truth about that, and it seemed to please him. He also approved of the idea of me babysitting him, he said it would be good practice for when I'm the nanny of my new half sibling. My cousin did make me give him another blowjob as punishment for hesitating when he asked me the question, but I consider that a fairly light punishment now, I'm just glad he didn't spank me or threaten me with penetration again. anonymous123Jul 05 2021 4:57pm At 20, it is easy to look back in hindsight and clearly see what SHOULD have been done then. In three years' time, when you are 23 and he is 13, you could be looking back in hindsight and see more clearly that you SHOULD have acted back then. That 'then' is now today, or this week. I know all this is easy to say, but difficult to actually implement. The top 7 lines of your last post could be the beginnings of a meeting with your uncles and cousins. All of you need to take a joint-action here. Strength in numbers. Just an idea PpJul 05 2021 5:39pm I have started conversations with my extended family members exactly like that before, saying how I wish we had done something 4 years ago, and 4 years from now I might be wishing we had done something now. Everyone agrees with the logic, but it hasn't helped us come up with anything that has any chance of working. I think I've found something I can do though, I can try to keep track of his children and try to make sure they don't turn into their father. If I can prevent that from happening in even a few cases, that's dozens of women/girls spared from that degradation and dozens of new fatherless children that won't be born. I've wondered who my cousin's father is, nobody knows and it was just assumed he was the result of some one night stand, but his mom was working as a substitute teacher at elementary schools at the time and it's possible his father was another kid like him, maybe no older than he is now. It might be a chain, and I can help to break it. His son by his old babysitter is already so muscular and big below the belt, in a few years he'll have the same type of body his father did when he became violent and sexually active and he'll be physically capable of following the same path, the only thing that can stop that is a good upbringing. It seems like he's getting that, but I want to make sure and maybe help out if I can, and I want to see if his other children are also doing OK and maybe report it to the authorities if they're not. It's too late for my cousin, but maybe I can do something for the next generation. anonymous123Jul 05 2021 6:38pm This is good mature forward planning on your part; like giving yourself a mission beyond whatever your career will be. As you said, it comes down to 'good parenting' and in his case, he didn't have the father-figure who would have provided the testosterone to keep the kid's testosterone in check...and of course, your 10 year old cousin had more than ample of that! Keep thinking ppJul 05 2021 6:56pm I spent some more time with my cousin's son yesterday, I'll call him Sam here to make it easier, though that's not his real name. His mom usually takes him to a daycare when she goes to work, but I offered to babysit him for a few hours instead. It was partially selfish, I get to get out of the house and away from the sight, sound, and smells of my cousin f*cking my mom, and my cousin allows me to leave for this purpose. I mostly enjoyed spending time with Sam, though there were a couple of embarrassing parts. It was encouraging to see how relatively normal he is in his behavior, not at all like his father was at that age. He's talkative, gregarious, and shows no hint of his father's cruelty, and very intelligent for his age, especially verbally. It's nice to see that while they may inherit their father's body, my cousin's kids don't necessarily inherit his personality. We spent most of the time watching cartoons and playing mariokart. At one point he asked to armwrestle me, saying he had beat his 10 year old neighbor recently and he wants to try against other people. I agreed out of curiosity, and it was pretty amazing how strong he was, the myostatin deficiency thing can do crazy things apparently. It took a couple minutes and a lot of effort, but in the end he won, and started jumping up and down chanting "I won! I won!". He didn't rub it in or make fun of me though, which is a good sign. We went back to playing mariokart like nothing had happened, and he still did what he was told, despite now knowing that he's stronger than me. The other embarrassing thing was when he walked in on me in the bathroom (there's no lock), just as I had finished peeing. He looked confused when he saw me, and asked "why is your peepee so small? Aren't you a grown-up? I thought its supposed to get bigger?" That was pretty mortifying, and I have a fairly feeble explanation along the lines of "everyone's different, it's like how some people have brown hair and some people have blond hair", and that seemed to make sense to him. Thankfully I didn't see his, I think his mom told him to keep his pants on while I was there, but I could see his bulge the whole time. In general it was very encouraging to see that Sam doesn't have his father's personality, and it makes me hopeful that at least his children don't necessarily behave like their father, including my future half sibling. He did inherit his father's body though, and that makes it extra important that he and the other kids need to be raised right. I'm very weak for my age, but it'll only be a couple years before Sam is stronger than the average guy my age, so it's important he is raised to handle that responsibly. He'll also be capable of being sexually active soon, so everyone needs to make sure that doesn't happen. anonymous123Jul 07 2021 6:09pm I had a feeling that you were having a torrid time at home, but that does not seem to be the case. Good of you to have this desire to be a positive influence on this 3 year old. Right now, he is innocent however I doubt it this will continue so don't let your guard down. Power goes to the head and like sexual urges, once experienced, the desire for MORE can increase. Idea:- perhaps some early intervention or a consultation by you to some medical / psychological person on how to assist a 3 year old with this condition, might be useful. PpJul 07 2021 8:52pm Well I am still having a torrid time at home, that's one of the reasons I want to spend time with Sam. My cousin doesn't allow me to leave the house except for when he sends me to the store, but he approves of me babysitting his son, so it's a good way to escape from the house. My cousin's continuing to torture me, one of the worst things he's done so far happened thursday morning. I woke up in my bed to a loud noise, and when I opened my eyes I saw that my mom was on her hands and knees above me, with one hand on either side of my body and her breasts right in front of me. My cousin was kneeling behind her, pounding her from behind, and the noise that woke me was her moan. My cousin was laughing, and he told me I had to stay where I was and keep my eyes open the whole time. After he was done he made me suck him again, and the final humiliation was that after he came in my mouth he told me to thank him for it. Stuff like that is why I'm so motivated to be away from them as much as I can, and it also motivates me to do what I can to prevent Sam from growing up into the same kind of person, to prevent him from ever treating any women or men the way my cousin treats my mom and me. I also genuinely enjoy spending time with him, playing mariokart or minecraft and watching him draw pictures, I thought I would have some involuntary resentment for him because of who his father is but thankfully that's not the case at all, and it would be unfair if it was. Sam's mom told me he is being monitored by doctors, but there aren't any treatments for myostatin-related muscle hypertrophy, and there aren't even any negative health effects other than a huge apatite. His apatite is unbelievable though, he eats much more than me despite being smaller. I'm very impressed with how his mom's taught him to deal with his strength, she's always drilled it into him that it's wrong for him to use it to hurt or take advantage of weaker kids even if they're older and larger, and he seems to have taken that to heart. I'm a bit worried about his sex education though. I went to the beach with Sam and his mom yesterday, and he started staring at some of the bikini-clad women. A very obvious bulge started to form in his swimming trunks, his dick had gone down one of the legs of the shorts when it was flaccid and now it was clearly hardening and forming an outline in the fabric. His mom picked him up (with difficulty, he's very heavy) and brought him to the car to cool down. He doesn't seem to understand what's happening or why, it's confusing to him. I discussed that with his mom, and she said she hasn't talked to him about anything like that, mostly because she doesn't know how to with a kid that age. We both agreed that it's important that he get some education soon, if he's going to develop that early then he needs to have the talk early as well. It's already causing him some pain, apparently he gets erections that don't go down for an hour or more, and it can get painful for him. anonymous123Jul 09 2021 5:16pm its getting worse for you each day as he calculates new ways of humiliating you. It is good that Sam is getting the correct info AND he is only 3 years, so don't expect this sort of logic to be completely understood and acted upon in the long term. Hormones change the brain and for him, this will come earlier than for most. Keep at it PpJul 10 2021 3:45pm Every time I start to get used to the situation my cousin just finds a way to make it worse. He's been doing things like f*cking my mom in my bed and then making me sleep in it, forbidding me to change the wet sheets or use a different blanket, so the whole night I was immersed in the feel and smell of sweat, semen, and other fluids. He made me take some pictures of them having sex and set one of them as my laptop and phone wallpaper, and he checks every so often to make sure I haven't changed it. A few times he stopped short of penetrating my mom and made her very desperate for it, and told her to insult and demean me before he'd do it. My mom's as slavishly devoted to him as ever, today he even invited a bunch of his friends over to play video games mostly. He stayed naked the whole time and my mom was still naked as well, serving them drinks and acting as a waitress. He f*cked her in front of them, but at least he didn't let any of his friends touch her. He made me show my dick to his friends as well and compare with him in front of them, then I had to give him another blowjob, it was awful. My cousin has so many sons and it seems like they inherit his body, if any of them are raised the way he was raised then they'll grow up to do the same sort of things that he does, the idea of a whole new generation of versions of him is horrifying, which is why I want to prevent that from happening. Sam's mom actually asked me to help her give "the talk" (or some version of it) to her son. I thought that was strange given how recently we met, but apparently she doesn't really know any other men since she left her family when she got pregnant, certainly none that Sam is close to, and she said he's taken a liking to me. Apparently he's been complaining a lot recently about the pain that comes from having an erection that won't go down for hours, and that's what made his mom decide he needs to be taught about these things and possibly about how to relieve himself when that happens, I'm not sure how I'll be able to do that though. anonymous123Jul 10 2021 5:49pm Oh gosh. Were his friends his age? I can't imagine his friends keeping all this quiet. I think that soon it will all be exposed. I would imagine that most of his friends would be typical pre-pubic 10 year olds. How did they react? Kids this young would not be able to 'shut up' about stuff like this. PpJul 10 2021 6:45pm All his friends are older than him, I think most of them are teenagers, I'd guess 12-14. They've all already hit puberty at least. My cousin's clearly the unquestioned leader of them all though, and I think they're at least a little afraid of him. If he tells them to keep quiet then they'll do it, nobody in their right mind would want to make him angry with them, even the most short-sighted and reckless kid would know that. I know he's had friends watch him f*ck our older cousin's girlfriend and several other women as well, and none of that has been exposed, so they must be keeping quiet about it. I hope they do, that would result in my mom getting arrested. They reacted surprisingly casually, they seemed to be used to this kind of show, and some of them had seen my mom before when he brought her to a party last month before he started f*cking her. They just kept drinking their beers and smoking, and watching from the couch like it was all perfectly normal. They praised my mom's attractiveness and said she was one of the hottest ones so far, and commented on her eagerness and how well she could take his dick. One of them told my cousin how lucky he was to get to live with someone like her, and he agreed and said he was planning on moving here permanently. When he mentioned he likes f*cking her so much he hasn't had anyone else in two weeks they were all pretty shocked, two weeks with only one woman is very unusual for him. When it was my turn they laughed at my size and at how little of his dick I could fit in my mouth. It's humiliating enough to have to give him a blowjob when we're alone, it was unbearable to do it in front of an audience. anonymous123Jul 10 2021 8:00pm how humiliating for you to be subjected to this in front of 12-14 year olds; hope it didn't give them any ideas. He is instilling fearlessness on these guys PpJul 11 2021 11:32am None of his friends have my cousin's body, so they'll never be capable of doing the things he does or having the same effect on women as him. Still, he's corrupting them in the same way he corrupts everyone else in his life. They came over again on Sunday and my cousin had my mom do a kind of strip-tease show for them all and he made me sit through it as well, it was terrible to watch. But when one of his friends grazed her ass with his hand as she walked past, my cousin got really mad. He grabbed the boy by the neck and pinned him to a wall while yelling at him about touching "his woman". He's incredibly possessive of her, and in a way I'm glad he's not just passing her around his friends. He punished his "friend" in the same way he punished me, by making him give him a blowjob. The other guests watched with this solemn expression on their faces, it looked like they'd seen this happen before, and it's obvious why they accept my cousin as their leader. After the blowjob he did something else he does with me, he had him take out his (average sized for his age) dick and compare it to his, and he asked my mom which one she chooses. Obviously she said she chooses my cousin's, and they had sex again in front of everyone. After that they all just continued what they were doing as if nothing had happened, though the boy he beat up was quiet for the rest of the night. anonymous123Jul 13 2021 4:36pm Also, I babysat Sam again yesterday, but this time something slightly worrying happened, and it really reinforced why it's so important to steer him in the right direction. He was watching TV, and he flicked to a channel showing some comedy program with a scene that featured some slightly scantily clad women. He was watching it very intently, and I could see him start to get an erection through the bulge in his pants. I took the remote and changed the channel, and for the first time I saw a different side of Sam, he got angry. He sprang up and marched toward me demanding I change it back. I backed away, remembering how he had beat me in armwrestling before, it was pretty scary. He's only slightly stronger than me at the moment, but with all the rage going through him I'm sure he could have hurt me pretty bad if he'd wanted to. I switched the channel back and gave him the remote, then went to the bathroom to cool off. It was frightening, and also pretty emasculating to be intimidated like that by a 3 year old. I guess the show ended after a few minutes and Sam calmed down, and he came to apologize to me, I accepted and he gave me a hug. I can't blame him for how he acted, it must be so confusing for him to have all these hormones flooding through his body at that age and not know what any of it means. But I could see the seeds of what his father became in that, and it showed me why it's so vital that he (and all my cousin's other children) should be raised right so they don't abuse their power. His mother said she's going to give him "the talk" soon and she asked for my help. anonymous123Jul 13 2021 4:44pm so many young minds being corrupted with firsthand experiences. Am wondering if you could advise those boys to NOT visit as a group. if there was no group-response (by not coming to the house), it might not feed your cousin's sense of power. the older ones in the group must know that this is wrong/not good for anyone. PpJul 14 2021 2:00pm Also, have a chat with the boy he humiliated. He is a possible ally and depending on who he is, he could be supported of my previous thought PpJul 14 2021 2:02pm I figure that if any of them had any sort of moral compass they wouldn't be hanging out with my cousin anyway, they were probably all already bad kids before they met my cousin. I got the sense from watching that none of them were surprised by what he made his "friend" do, at least a few of the others had probably been subjected to the same thing at some point, it's my cousin's primary way of punishing other males, and it has been for years. I'm not particularly concerned about them being corrupted, none of them would be capable of doing what my cousin does even if they wanted to, so the example he's setting doesn't really matter. I'm worried about my cousin's kids and what kind of people they might turn into, because they could really do some damage. I'm going to help Sam's mom give him "the talk" tomorrow, and she mentioned something about me teaching him how to "relieve himself" when he gets his erections. I agree that that's something he has to know, apparently right now they often don't go down for up to an hour and get painful for him, but I don't know how she expects me to teach him that. anonymous123Jul 14 2021 6:27pm Yeah; tricky conversation, especially when he is only three! this is like opening a pandora's box. it could be the beginnings of him 'doing it' every five minutes. Might be better to delay this and find physical activities like kicking a ball out in the back garden. i would not go into the intricacies of 'when boy meets girl.' PpJul 15 2021 12:28pm Me and Sam's mom had the chat with him yesterday, a bit later than we had planned. She did most of the talking, which is obviously appropriate, and at first I wondered why she wanted me there at all. She started out by saying that he had asked her before why he feels weird when he looks at girls and why his penis gets all big sometimes, and she said she wants to explain it. At first she tried to be vague, saying that eventually boys and girls start getting attracted to each other so they can make families, and that it's happening to him earlier because he's special. He kept asking pointed questions, like why the thing happens to his penis, and his mom eventually even had to explain the mechanics of sex to him. It was pretty awkward for me to be sitting there, but Sam was listening very intently, a lot of things were starting to make sense to him now. Sam's mom emphasized the importance of consent, and told him he was much too young to be doing it, and it will be at least 10 years before he can, that made him look pretty disappointed. Then came my part. His mom said she was going to leave the room, and let me explain masturbation to him. I had expected to have to do something like this so I had something prepared, and I explained what it is and that he can use it to relieve himself when his penis is big for too long and it's causing him pain. He asked me to demonstrate the motion, and I got a banana and tried to mimic it with that. But Sam apparently wanted coaching, and before I could stop him he had his pants off. Again I saw his flaccid dick, and it was definitely significantly bigger than my erection already. Sam reached behind the couch cushions and pulled out a worn old magazine, I think it was a bikini or lingerie catalog or something like that, and asked me not to tell his mom he had it. I tried to get him to put it away, but instead he flicked through the pages, and his dick started to harden. By the time it was finished it was at least twice as big as my erection, I would guess 6.5 inches minimum and possibly as much as 7! It looked even bigger than my cousin's in contrast to his small body. He started mimicking what I had done to the banana and asking if he was doing it right, and I gave him some pointers, like loosening his grip and holding it further down the shaft. He asked me to do it to him to show him how it works, but obviously I refused. Then he asked me to demonstrate by doing it on myself, but I refused that too, and when he tried to press me I said that I'm so small that the way I do it would be very different from the way he'd have to do it, presumably he thought back to when he had seen my dick in the bathroom and agreed that that made sense. Eventually he got the hang of it, and had his first (waking) orgasm, ejaculating a very large amount of semen onto the floor. For some reason that still shocked me, the idea that he might be capable of impregnating someone already is quite disturbing. As I was cleaning it up I told him to try not to do it more than once a day, and he agreed. I think his mom did the right thing, if he's developing this early then he needs to understand what happening, anything else would just lead to confusion and distress. And given what he's already capable of, if he doesn't understand the basics of sex his hormones and instincts could lead to him doing some bad things, but he needs to be taught self control as well. anonymous123Jul 17 2021 5:06pm glad you chose correctly and refused his options. Tricky conversations. Better to know that you did something rather than regretting later that you should have done something but didn't. having had this first experience of pleasure, i doubt if he would have the self-control to refrain from experiencing it more often. PpJul 18 2021 8:07pm Are you OK? PpJul 28 2021 1:36am ??? ?Oct 05 2021 4:30pm Hey anonymous. this site is working again after x weeks. how are things with you? ppOct 05 2021 4:41pm was a big girl my entire life and so easy for me to build muscles. I was trying to hide my muscles and big size until I met my current boyfriend who is really a small guy but likes big strong women like myself. At first he was complimenting my big body and muscles then he started asking to wrestle him at first I didn’t want to do it because I know that I am much stronger than him. Anyway we started doing it and I really enjoyed it. He is no match for me at all I can barely feel his hands and legs around me when we wrestle. Then he started asking to be more liberal and get rid of my wide clothes and start wearing shorts and sleeveless shorts in public so everyone can see my big body and huge muscles. At first I was not feeling very comfortable showing off my body, but then I started liking it. Now I am more comfortable with my big body and muscles. Few weeks ago, I moved in with him and now he’s pushing me to be bigger and more muscular. Also, he is pushing me to be more neutral like he does not want me to put any make up. Also, he really loves watching me wrestling his roommate and his other male friends. I am still not really comfortable for it, but I think I will do it anyway. ChelseaOct 08 2021 3:13am Sorry I left, I didn't realize the site was working again. A lot has happened in the last couple months, if you're still here. anonymous123Nov 11 2021 6:02pm // /Dec 17 2021 4:39pm hey anon 123. how are things? PpDec 30 2021 3:20pm working or not ?Mar 20 2022 4:31pm Hey anony 123. where are you writing these days PpMar 20 2022 4:35pm Hey if you or anyone else would like to chat about muscle boys hit me up at discussme320@gmail.com discussmeJun 09 2022 1:07pm Add a comment: Vote Results |
