Sapphire Apr 15 2016 6:30pmFLAG
Interesting...also I aparently have a few followers even thought I haven't done anything. Also you are the only one aside from my slaves to bother learning enough about me to actually guess that *smirks*
SapphireApr 15 2016 6:35pmFLAGSo aside from social network stalking how have you been lately *grins*
MasterTSApr 15 2016 6:36pmFLAGPretty good. How about you?
SapphireApr 15 2016 6:37pmFLAGNot much up until recently when I found not just one, but two people actually worth a damn talking to. And one of them was just a huge troll until just a while ago but I'm sure you know all about that Saph haha you spend way more time over in love that I do
MasterTSApr 15 2016 6:42pmFLAGFor your information, I actually don't. I visit for you and then you aren't here sometimes so I decided what the hell and I go on love.
SapphireApr 15 2016 6:44pmFLAGStill more time than I ever spend there, it's always 'I'm ** and have ****** ****** I want a bf' or the site is shutting down or just wave after wave of trolls...it's like a trollnami
MasterTSApr 15 2016 6:46pmFLAGThat's true. I know you have numerous accounts of "Attack of the Trolls" *smirks*
SapphireApr 15 2016 6:49pmFLAGYes but either they have gotten weaker or I've just gotten better but they don't pose nearly as much of a challenge these days *sigh*
MasterTSApr 15 2016 6:58pmFLAGHmm I don't know about you getting better. *smirks* I think they've just gotten weaker.
SapphireApr 15 2016 7:10pmFLAGYou know that's what it feels like, and that's what makes it so disappointing. After all this time it really is just a downhill battle at this point
MasterTSApr 15 2016 7:27pmFLAGMaybe they're deciding to leave you alone except for the newer more experienced trolls. Do you still have your girls?
SapphireApr 15 2016 7:33pmFLAGA few, the good ones *smiles*
MasterTSApr 15 2016 8:04pmFLAG
That's good. *looks down and smiles*
SapphireApr 15 2016 8:08pmFLAGSomething on your mind?
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 8:45pmFLAGI guess so but its not important. Your girl is here.
SapphireApr 15 2016 8:53pmFLAGSapphire are you mad? Where did he go?
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 9:14pmFLAGYou know I always want to hear what you have to say Saph I always have time for you.
MasterTSApr 15 2016 9:24pmFLAGHello Love Young welcome back
MasterTSApr 15 2016 9:24pmFLAG*smiles* Thank you. I can't sleep, so I would like to talk.
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 9:27pmFLAGSure, what's on your mind?
MasterTSApr 15 2016 9:29pmFLAGMy troubles, really. I'm so young, and I feel really overwhelmed by everything that has happened to me in the last two years.
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 9:30pmFLAGIt's easy to find yourself overwhelmed, you just have to pick through the crap bit by bit till you work it all out. What kind of stuff, school, people, life in general?
MasterTSApr 15 2016 9:34pmFLAGLife in general. And People. Do you really want to know my story? Its really long..
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 9:36pmFLAGI don't mind, listening doesn't take much energy *grins*
MasterTSApr 15 2016 9:38pmFLAGOk. Here I go. In 2 0 1 4, I had a best friend named Kayla. We were literally sisters. Then, I meet him. My new crush. It is October when this starts. Well, he found out I liked him. And the lies and bullying start. The older girls, would make fun of me and say it would never work out between me and him. Now, this went on until May. Eight long months of this hell. Well, Kayla would tell me things about how "He" liked me back. Well, in May, she openly admitted that she would tell me a different lie every day. It broke my heart that my best friend of five years would do that to me... I considered suicide and wad temped so much to choke myself.. But I didn't. I pushed on. Now, in 2 0 1 5 , my grandfather died, and that was a mess. I never really got a proper goodbye, and it still destroys me.. Well, now my family is dysfunctional and can't stand each other. I have trust issues, and the boy doesn't know that I was lied to, and that also kills me every day. So yeah, as I write this, TS, I'm laying in a spare room at my aunts house at almost eleven pm wondering what it could have been like, if I just had a second chance.
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 9:51pmFLAGFirst of all Young Love you have as many chances as you can muster. Your last chance is when you fall and refuse to get back up and keep going. I am sorry about your Grandpa, it's sad to loose family but I know he is watching out for you still. As for your friend, that was a very ty thing to do, but you know she is a liar now, use that knowledge to make yourself smarter. Don't fall for the same crap again. If all else just cut ties, there are too many people in this world that will be your real friend to waste time on a fake. As for the boy, if you really like him just be up front about it, girls tend to attack other girls when they feel threatened so he's probably the popular one and they fear you for some reason. Don't agitate them directly but don't let them bother you either, worry about him. Least that's my take on it so far.
MasterTSApr 15 2016 9:59pmFLAGThank you so much. But, as for the boy, we haven't been in contact for almost two years... Should I tell him what really went down, and cut ties with him? Or, should I just stay away..?
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 10:02pmFLAGYour call. If you feel at all that you might look back one day and regret not talking to him it might be worth it. What's the worst that happens? He mocks you or acts like a prick? Laugh at him and move on knowing you lucked out. Turned down? Well at least you know now and you can stop stressing over it. Yeah it might hurt for a while but you'll move on, we humans always do. Or you could just as easily wash your hands of it now, say it's not worth any more effort and move on from here.
MasterTSApr 15 2016 10:09pmFLAGThank you so much, TS.... I really do appreciate your time and advice. And thank god there is another person on this website who isn't insane, on drugs, a pervert, or needs therapy, am I right? You are a really easy person to talk to, so thank you.
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 10:16pmFLAG*smiles* I went through something similar once, let's just say I wished I had someone to talk to about it at the time. Do you think you are ready for some sleep? After all that it will do you some good. If not I'll be up for a while.
MasterTSApr 15 2016 10:17pmFLAG
I probably won't go to sleep soon. I will probably just watch some YouTube for a little while. Haha then I will probably pass out. *smiles*
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 10:21pmFLAGOk, anything else you want to talk about before you sink into a YT hole?
MasterTSApr 15 2016 10:22pmFLAGActually, there is one thing... Are you still wondering how young I am?
LoveYoungApr 15 2016 10:25pmFLAGI was never wondering how young you are haha, in fact you never seemed all that young when I talk to you.
MasterTSApr 15 2016 10:43pmFLAGLike I said, it doesn't matter. Just that same, wanting what you can't have feeling. It's stupid.
SapphireApr 16 2016 6:52pmFLAG*frowns* It does matter, your feelings as a living breathing human being matter. I know I can't give you what you want Saph. I do find it interesting that you have such feelings, all things considered. Have you ever stopped to ask yourself 'why him of all people'?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 7:08pmFLAGYes, I think about it all the time. Trust me. I honestly never come up with an answer. I guess I'm just stuck.
SapphireApr 16 2016 7:20pmFLAGWell when you have an answer then you'll have your solution. Ultimately you have one question to answer. Do you feel the way you do because of who I am now, the master, or do you imagine the me that is only yours, the one I might become one day maybe just for you? Answer that and you will know what you must do.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 7:23pmFLAGWhen I was yours, I would try to put my feelings for you away because I knew I would only be hurt. I knew then that I only wanted you as mine. I've known the answer to that question for a while.
SapphireApr 16 2016 7:31pmFLAGYour mistake was to put your feelings away, your feelings need to be a part of belonging to me or there is no point to it. If you have to shut them off, how could either of us enjoy it?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 7:33pmFLAGI didn't shut them off completely. I felt like I belonged to you, but I would still think about the other girls.
SapphireApr 16 2016 7:40pmFLAGAnd tell me, what about the other girls worried you so much?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 7:43pmFLAGI was insecure I guess. I always thought somehow they were better than me.
SapphireApr 16 2016 7:47pmFLAGYour feelings about the matter, nothing more. I don't particularly keep track of 'who's best or worst' I simply have 'those I trust and bring into my family and those that are not' true there are those that have distinguished themselves one way or another and I acknowledge that in how I treat them. But these were are things they accomplished with their own skill and determination. Nothing more. Overcoming 'the other girls' is part of the trials. If you can't put what you want before those feelings, then I you aren't ready for your place with me yet.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 7:52pmFLAGAnd if I overcome the "other girls"? Then what happens?
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 7:59pmFLAGThen you take your place with me and see where it takes you, nothing more or less than you put into it.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:01pmFLAGThen I'll try to get over with. I just have to figure out how.
SapphireApr 16 2016 8:12pmFLAGEither your feelings for me outweigh your jealousy for them, or it doesn't. It's not a matter of try...if you have to 'try' to force those feelings to change, then are they genuine feelings? Or feelings you created to fit a wild fantasy you had?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:14pmFLAGMy feelings are bigger than the jealousy, but I can't help to think about it sometimes.
SapphireApr 16 2016 8:20pmFLAGThen think about it, just know where those feelings belong and never let those feelings influence how you treat those around you. Thinking about it is good, and healthy. Just don't let your emotions run out of control just because you do.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:22pmFLAGSo much advice. *smiles at you*
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 8:26pmFLAG*smiles* what can I say, a master was originally a teacher. Controlling and strict, but a teacher of many at once.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:27pmFLAGRemember when I used to hate the thought of you being my teacher.
SapphireApr 16 2016 8:32pmFLAGYes, one of your own trials to overcome, something you have done admirably *smiles*
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:33pmFLAGWasn't easy. You definitely helped. *smirks*
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 8:37pmFLAG*shrugs* I try my best for those I deem worth it *smirks* but you know you always have a place here, weather you wear my collar proudly or not, as pet or friend, you will always have a place with me.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:40pmFLAGI want more than the collar, but apparently that's as far as I'm getting.
SapphireApr 16 2016 8:46pmFLAGOh? Like what more than the collar?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:49pmFLAGYou. Not as a pet or even as your friend. I only want you.
SapphireApr 16 2016 8:52pmFLAG...Question...what do you think the collar means? What do you think it represents?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 8:53pmFLAGIt means that I'm yours. I know that.
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 8:58pmFLAGYes...but that's only half of it. The other half is, I belong to you. The collar means you get me, how much depends on you.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:02pmFLAGThis feels like the first time when you tried to get me to be yours. Do you just want me to wear the collar again?
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 9:04pmFLAGYou say 'just' wear the collar as is it's just a fetish. If it were just over the collar I wouldn't have done what I did. Also you came to me first so...*smirks*
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:09pmFLAGThen why did you do it?
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 9:11pmFLAGAs I said, you came to me first, that alone interested me. Then I got to know you and you didn't disappoint. No matter how I knew you, you were an amazing person regardless *smiles*
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:13pmFLAGUnfortunately, I didn't stay that amazing girl. Not at that time at least.
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 9:22pmFLAG...*glares* tell me, if you weren't someone worth knowing would I waste my precious time on you?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:23pmFLAGMost likely not so you can see why I get a little confused at times as to why you do waste your time on me.
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 9:26pmFLAGThen let me enlighten you. If you were just some piece of trash, like you want to pretend you are right now, then we wouldn't be talking right now. Tell me, what are you so ashamed of?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:29pmFLAGWhy aren't you mad at me for quitting on you the first time?
SapphireApr 16 2016 9:32pmFLAGMad?...mad?...why on earth would I ever be mad at you Sapphire? You made a choice and still found room in your life for me...if anything it is I who should be thanking you for being such a good friend these past couple years despite what happened. You never wronged me or betrayed me...so why would I ever have a reason to be mad at you?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:35pmFLAGI don't know. It just feels like you should be. I guess it would have made it easier to get over you if I thought you were mad.
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 9:44pmFLAGI'm only ever truly mad at those who betray me, I never had anything but respect for you Saph.
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:45pmFLAGWell I'm glad you respect me. If I was yours again, would you be happy?
SapphireApr 16 2016 9:48pmFLAG*smiles* Of course, you have always had a place with me reserved just for you. *holds out hand* what do you say, will you submit yourself to me, and receive all I have to offer in return?
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:51pmFLAG*holds your hand and smiles* TS, I'm finally ready to be yours completely.
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 9:56pmFLAG*raises your hand to my lips and kisses it* then kneel *holds out a slightly worn black leather collar with silver wolfs head medallion* I have something for you
MasterTSApr 16 2016 9:59pmFLAG*kneels down* Ready for my collar. *laughs*
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 10:02pmFLAG*smiles and kneels down next to you, slowly wrapping the soft leather around your neck and clasping it shut* Welcome again, my pet *smiles*
MasterTSApr 16 2016 10:06pmFLAGI'm glad to be back. *kisses you gently*
SapphireApr 16 2016 10:17pmFLAG*kisses you back, gently wrapping my arms around your waist and holding you close* You always did look good in silver and black *grins*
MasterTSApr 16 2016 10:18pmFLAGGood because I don't know if I'm taking it off this time. Let's not forget I look good in anything though.
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 10:23pmFLAGThis is true, admittedly since black and silver are my colors I do have a bias *smirks*
MasterTSApr 16 2016 10:24pmFLAGYour colors are my colors. *smiles* It feels right this time. Fire overcoming the trials and ice inviting fire back in.
Sapphire Apr 16 2016 10:29pmFLAG*runs my fingers lightly over your leather clad neck* If it feels right it's because your heart agrees *pulls you into my lap with my arms wrapped around you* Your trials are far from over, but a promising re-entry *grins*
MasterTSApr 16 2016 10:34pmFLAG*holds your hands and groans* TS, I'm going to be dead by the time my trials are over.
SapphireApr 17 2016 2:03amFLAGYou wear my collar, it's master now, but why do you think so?
MasterTSApr 17 2016 2:24amFLAGFine, Master. There are just so many and it's starting to seem like you have a lot more things to teach me.